UPCOMING CHALLENGES Rosh Hashanah ... Food Shows

SO.... 
 On Wednesday evening we are either cooking at home which is ideal or going out to dinner @ Seasons 52 ...  which a a healthy oriented place to eat... so its not a bad choice.. I have never been there just heard about it... 
Thursday is Rosh Hashanah , after temple we will go to my aunts to eat... I warned her ahead of time that I probably will not be eating but bringing a bar to eat.. I explained that my food is OU Kosher and she was fine with that... Its just a wonderful time with once a year foods... from brisket , to tsmimmes, to salads ( drenched in salad dressing)  appetizers,  Challahs    possibly fried Chicken or chicken wings... who knows... lol.. squash or potato cassaerole  Kashi.., honey, apples,  cakes, cookies, pastires.. not much there in choices and I certainly was not going to ask for anything special for me...  This is my choice ... to eat healthier.. and my choice to not participate in the food .. but be their for family and friends... I love the Challah bread, I love the desserts,   and all the rich foods... it has surrounded me my entire life... I have always looked forward to the holiday foods...  For my Christian friends. Its kinda like Christmas Brunch and Dinner combined .. all the foods you love and mostly stuff you only have that one time of year.. but here is the thing... is 4 seconds of taste worth  my life... ?? whats more important... eating the goodies... or saying.. hey I am okay with this.... maybe next year I can partake a bit .. right now.. its about being with family and friends.. and knowing my food choices  are to make me a healthier and stronger person... 

The Following week we have a food show...  today I am practicing eating a cold meal for lunch as I wont have  access to a microwave to make my fancy mac and cheese.. so I wanted to start practicing not having that option avaliable ... might sound silly but not to me... 

 I am still haunted by the well meaning but kinda of stabbing words of friends who know folks who have been on MF and lost and regained +  all their weight back..  I still get the eye rolls.. a little..  I have  to believe that I am off the struggle wagon and on the wagon of good health and getting stronger... I have to believe there is a purpose to it all and it does not lead to the tunnel of failure.. a spiraling dark place that I dread... 

I must believe that this is right and good and can be done...
Its just a matter of Faith in myself.... My husband said I really need to work on this... and thats what I am trying hard to do..   Monday.. will hopefully show another milestone weight loss..  I did my check on Thursday and I was  179.2  I am hoping that will be my reading on Monday .. who knows... with this horrible heat ... I wont be surprised if I have some water retention issues.. though I am getting all my water in plus... and keeping tabs on salt intake... 

Well... here is to the positive.. and here is to meeiing my challenges and conquering them as well...