Sunday, June 22, 2014

FINDING THE PATH...

I hate when I get like this... 
Uncomfortable and not liking the path I am on...

soooo what do you do...??? 
Me??

 I don't give up I just find a new path.. 
While I think WW is great I feel it is just not for me,.. 

I think it gives me permission to go carb crazy ..

I was doing much better just using my fitness pal and watching calories and carbs..
.I like the way the app works.. 
I don't have to keep creating foods and it takes me a minute to figure things.. 

So .. I have wonderful support.. Great friends  who have been helping me and not to mention my sweet husband... 
I like the things Patricia Kimerling has been connecting me too and the recipes are not too complicated..
I really just want to live instead of worry constantly ... 

So here is to my yet again new ( old) path.. And living!!! 

I also removed a lot of the WW stuff from my feed on FB ... just because so many comments were choices that are not good to me.. I will still visit the pages from time to time for motivation ..but seeing recipes for dump cakes and 123 cakes constantly made me feel like I was linked to a Paula Deen page or something... That's why sooo many of the pages I keep up with are people who eat whole and healthy with treats here and there ..l am not putting WW down its just about what works for me..

I think that's what any true health adventure is.. Finding the right path... 

I talked to another good friend today who shares my struggles and she so understood how I felt..
So it's all good ... I know I keep flitting around since Medifast .. But I just have to find my way.. And I will .. 
Have a great week 

Monday, June 16, 2014

REALIZING.... LEARNED..... ALWAYS MUST...... ACCEPTING... RECOMMITING

REALIZING:    it is one of those sick stomach realizations about yourself.. but you have to take it in .. and realize that this is just part of you.. maybe not your favorite part but it is how you are wired.. so you have to plan a way to live with it... I am talking about old habits.. old  reactions... old actions that creep back into the fold of your life silently.. and you are almost unaware that they are sliding back into your daily habits.. as they sooth and smoothly wrap themselves into your veins yet again..


LEARNED:   I can stop it...  I can  combat it...  I can re focus that energy and reaction to something more beneficial ..


ALWAYS MUST:   Keep Trigger foods out.. ( talk more about that in a minute) .. Healthy choices available at all times for all circumstances. 


ACCEPTING:  THIS IS WHO I AM ..  A GRACIOUS MIX OF INSECURITES AND WEAKNESS.. COMBINED WITH THE DESIRE TO BE HEALTHY AND BETTER.. 


TRIGGER FOODS:  It is a stark realization that a harmless box of crackers can be the devil in drag .  I learned that this week.. I thought I found a friend in Townhouse Pretzel thins ( garlic parmesan )  NO they are no friend of mine and they do not even taste that good... they are processed junk.. my body wants it and wants the whole box...   its gone now... never to cross my threshold again...
It is odd that I can have a few reduced fat wheat thins.. and not think anything of it...  have no interest in them whatsoever.. they are not a trigger food.. but those Townhouse Pretzel Thins sure were a big no no... So No No more  in our house...   I can have Kind quinoa  granola clusters in the house and sprinkle some on my light yogurt.. and its no problem.. I can have other brands in the house.. and the red lights go flashing... and the sirens blare... I just cant leave it alone... Its so ugly and weird.. that I still have trigger foods....  I think the  understanding is always..that I will have to deal with this.. so developing the skills to manage it once and for all ... is what I am doing now... I realize that there are foods that can not come into the house... and its horribly ironic when you go into our downstairs and see our test kitchen.. for our business. and you know that there are freezers full of  cakes, pies,  dough... pastries.. etc.. at any time during the year...  Some how I have managed to turn that off... and know that this in not something I get involved with... therefore its not  issue... but a frigging box of crackers is.. how wacky is that... ??  
  As long as I stay portion controlled with my carbs I seem to do better...   3 servings of fruit a day..  2 servings of light bread a day ..   3 servings of veggies a day .. and protein mixed in ... and a weight watchers ice cream bar as a special treat... the thing I do not understand with myself is how come I can eat one of those ice cream bars.. and it is not a trigger.. 1 and I am fine... I started looking at sugar amounts on  various things.. and I find that when something is higher in sugar I seem to want it more.. when its lower in sugar.. i.e. the kind granola or the WW ice cream bar... I am satisfied with what I get... a portion...   all thought I think its more carb related than just sugar.. I am not huge on really fatty foods... like fries... or things of that nature.. they tend to make me ill so I prefer lower fat foods... so its not the fat content... I tie it too the sugars and carbs.. or really Sugars are Carbs .. so it is one in the same... 
So... My 1 year anniversary is coming up on July 8th... the day I decided to turn my world around.... so that is cause for celebration...  My hope is to knock off another 20 pounds for this year...
 I have also learned that I maintain with in 5 pounds .. fabulously on WW...  now I just have to pull the food in tighter and lessen the carbs and concentrate on veggies and protein a bit more...  to help me get the rest of the weight off.. I also believe working consistently on my portion sizes will help too..
 My recommitment day is JUNE 18th... It sounded like a good date... 


wishing everyone... the ability to Realize...  to Learn... to find their Always Musts... to become Accepting... and to Recommit to yourself... that you are a priority...



Thursday, June 12, 2014

THE COLORS OF COLORADO, SWEET HOME ALABAMA


SOOO took my first big road trip since the  weight loss.... 
Eating was an adventure and I will put this firmly in concrete I much prefer being at home in my own environment when it comes to food...
I totally enjoy  creating our meals...  I like knowing what is and is not in my food..  I like being in control of my portion sizes and measuring if need be.  I like the portion controlled servings I have around my kitchen...


While I am a great eyeballer.. I just prefer the comfort of my own environment...  That is not to say I did not have a great adventure mind you... So let me break it down for you..


We left at 3 am   ... heading down the road in the Miata.. ( color us crazy but that was what we wanted to do ) .. As we approached  Cullman Al.. we ran into a bit of a twist... we hit a tire recap in the road ( commonly known in these parts as a road gator) .. it broke off half the front spoiler sending that flying under the car... denting the heat shield( found that out that this week when we had the repair estimate done)  and knocking brackets loose.. as well as some plastic parts on the back of the car....  SOOO we turned that vehicle around.. drove 70 miles back home... parked her in the garage loaded up the Cx9 and headed off yet again...


For the most part the ride from Alabama to Colorado was uneventful other than a couple hiccups with the GPS..  the road conditions where decent...  the traffic was  heavy in St Louis.. in fact as we were heading towards Kansas City ... we came upon a shoot out... It honestly looked like something you would see on Law and Order or any one of those police shows...  Multiple cop cars with  cops all over the place .. guns drawn .. German sheperds with their partners tracking... Cops running back and forth... this was right off the interstate and it was very surrealistic to see..   Otherwise we hit a few rain patches...  Got to Topeka the first night and camped out at a Ramada Inn...   Headed on to Colorado the next day ...  and arrived safely .. right as we pulled into the parking lot of the Hotel.. our GPS crapped out.. totally... Thank heavens for WAZE  on our phones.. it got us back home safe the following week..  


 Once in Colorado we settled down and got busy getting ready for the IDDBA...  International Dairy Deli Bakery Association Convention...  lets just say its a room the length of  3 or so football fields  .. loaded with every type of food .. you can imagine.. Cheeses,  Pizza,  Deli Meats .. pastries... cookies... candies...  sandwiches.. etc..in the mix of the not so healthy were some good choices ..but a few times I just had to walk out ..sit in the lobby and regroup...
This gives you an idea ...

We also saw this GORGEOUSNESS :



We left Colorado a week ago and arrived home safely to rainy SWEET HOME ALABAMA.. A beautiful trip ..but glad to be back home...

A little motivation for our weekend :