IT'S NOT ALWAYS EASY

Fibromyalgia an really be a frustrating syndrome to live with... FMS.. can sometimes totally dominate your life... It is as if you have to plan things.. in a way to see what you will have strength to do.. and inevitabily you have to give up something because your body just simply says FUCK YOU... I am done...  I can't do anymore... and then you have to change your course of action to finish the day .. even though you totally wanted to do other things...  SOMETIMES I JUST GET TIRED OF BEING SO TIRED. AND HURTING... THE HURTING CAN DRIVE ME BONKERS SOMETIMES...  I just sometimes desperately want some relief... and the reality is... there are good days and bad days and when I do a lot in one day ... I wear myself out... 

 Today we rode 200+ miles on the motorcycle.. walked  rocky hills through the Collinsville Flea Market.. had lunch at a BBQ joint..   then came home and washed the Miata and CX9... I wanted to make Stuffed portabellos for dinner tonight... Number  1 I am just not that hungry... and Number two I do not have the energy... I want to go walk tonight to try and get my 10,000 steps in..  Right now I am over  6000...  I can feel my body just straining to continue on... tonight I chose walking over cooking.. ... Steve made some fresh whole wheat bread so for tonight I am going to have apple salad and  a piece of his toast with a ltitle sugar free strawberry jam ... .. I had a pulled pork sandwhich for lunch .. left  half the bun  and ate a good bit of the meat and a few bites of slaw.. still did good... WW wise .. 25 out of my 26 points.. by tonight.. so thats good..  

Will do the Stuffed Portabellos tommorow night...and manage my day a bit better too..

THE TIME IS NOW!!!! DAY ONE DONE

AS Many of you know now I started Weight Watchers online today...  I have been whining about maintaining my weight loss from Medifast for over 2 months and while I have done great doing that.... The time is NOW to finish what I started.. 20 MORE POUNDS..  

 I feel good and confident... and am ready to give it a go.. 
Day one done... 26 points     a day  and 49  bonus points....  
19 used today.. just the way the day panned out..  I am comfortably satisified.. and Happy that I am moving once again to realize my goal.... 
Never giving up is the Key !.. it is the Truth... 
One of my dear young friends.. who has been on the journey much longer than me with a a far greater struggle than me... Is once again getting back on the train of good health... he has overcome so much.. and I am beyond proud of him... STEPHEN VINSON YOU ROCK BUDDY.. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU.. AND SO EXCITED ABOUT YOUR FORTH COMING MARRIAGE AND NEW LIFE..  I know you can achieve it all.. I believe in you no matter what...    You can visit him here.. !!!    WHO ATE MY BLOG..     Sweetness we all struggle and you can win.. and you will have this wonderful life with your gorgeous soon to be wife.. I just wish you the most happiness there is.. We can conquer whatever we have to to  get to the places we want ...  One step at a time.. One foot in front of the other... Conquer and WIN!!!!!    

THE TIME IS NOW! 

FUNNY STORY...
 My husband tonight finally explained to me that no matter how much weight I lose I will never grow taller... that I will always be pint sized..  all 4ft 11 inches of me..  I will never achieve my dream of wearing a Maxi Dress and looking like I belong in it...   perhaps a high low skirt is in my future who knows...  sigh... I was  downhearted   because of this  stark realization... I coveted those dresses over the last 8 months... but the reality is.. I look like I am wearing someone elses dress.. .... sigh....

Have a great night... and remember...

THE TIME IS NOW!!..

I SLIDE AROUND NOW

I think one of the oddest  things about this weight loss adventure.. is the FACT  that now when I ride with Steve on the Motorcycle I have to hold on.. before I was just planted in one place ... I could sleep, I could read.. I could take photos... Now I hold on for dear life.. because my center of gravity has changed due to my weight loss... 


 It is a totally new riding experience.. as  a smaller person.. I really have to pay attention and hold on.. otherwise I will slide off.. I have to remind Steve not to polish the seat before I get on.. seriously I slide around now... I think it is kinda cool now the gap that is between he and I when we ride... before we were up against each other... See Steve has lost about 30 pounds  and I am at about 55... so that's 85 pounds less on the bike... Steve does not notice it as much as I do because he is in control of the ride.. being the passenger it is totally different experience now... 


Is it good or bad you ask??


Just different is all..


Noticing these things are amazing to me... and a reminder of the Non Scale victories in my life...


The scale has not moved much in recent weeks... and that's okay... as I have said many times maintaining my weight feels good... and the desire to lose more is still there... I am eating great .. moving more... just waiting for my body to kick in... which I am sure it will soon...  over all I do feel good...  minus the lack of sleep etc... the usual pain etc... 


 The new life incorporates lots of different things... lots of new feelings too.. the rest of the road still waits to be paved by me... and it will be... but I am enjoying the ride right now...
Have a great week..
NYC bound Friday .. YAY!!!

YOU ARE KIDDING ME .. RIGHT .,.???

Ohh my goodness, I waited for weeks to try the LEAN 25 protein shake and all I can say is I am so thankful this was a sample packet.. Let's say 99 % of it ended up down the drain... It was horrible.. The first thing that stuck me was the artificial smell ..of the powder ..and once mixed with sweetened almond milk and ice it went down hill from there.....worst shake of all I tried.. Also tried the Reset chocolate one.. Ech,.. The smell of the powder alone was a turn off.. I don't care how good something is suppose to be for you.. If it smells artificial
 Chances are it is...

The winner for me is : THE NEXT STEP FIT AND FULL PROTEIN POWDER ... FOUND AT THE. VITAMIN SHOPPE..THE TASTE IS  GREAT , IT MIXES WELL.. 140 calories plus 30 for a cup of unsweetened almond milk.. 5-6 grams fiber and 14 grams of protein.. I also like Tera's whey dark chocolate protein powder...110 calories..21 grams protein .. I love the rich cocoa smell and flavor too..
between my quest bars and 2 shake blends.. I have come with some good meal replacement  choices and snacks...

Now on we go!!!

I LIKE A PLAN

 I saw that in 8 months I lost 54.8 pounds.. because I had a plan.... In mid February I had to back off of Medifast because I was having stomach issues... and not feeling well.... Since then I have maintained my weight with in 4 .4 pounds... 

 I want to reach the goal I set for myself... i do not feel it is unrealistic... I feel its healthy... and smart... and its a goal... to me there is no feeling greater than reaching a goal... and accomplishing something no matter what that goal may be.... in whatever facet of your life... 

NO MATTER WHAT YOUR AGE YOU CAN ALWAYS IMPROVE YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES WITH A PLAN..

I believe that... 

that is why I am on this shake kick and posting a lot about it on my

ACCENTUATE THE POSITIVE  facebook page.. 

 I am working on my plan ... sometimes you have to revamp things and find a different way and that okay as long as you do not give up..

I saw the dietician yesterday and she basically said I need to breath... monitor my food like I have been ... relax... and let things fall into place... increase my exercise to my level  and what I can do with out injuring myself .. and be patient and work towards my goal..  

I need to also reflect on my accomplishments thus far.. and that is something I have a huge issue with ... 
I never see how far I have come only how far I still have to go... 
like a mountain it looms before... telling me to start climbing... 

sometimes I just simply get tired of climbing so many mountains...  but I guess thats a normal feeling...    

 I really like the me I have become over these last 8 months... and I look forward to reaching my goal and being where I want to be and being satisfied with that accomplishment.. and maintaining that weight as well... 

Finding what works  and implimenting those skills  for a healthy life is what is important to me now...
Maybe it is simply a constant quest  to reevaluate and shape what works ... 

I do know one thing I like a plan......  

SHAKE IT UP PART ONE

So so far I have tried:

Lean Body for Women -  threw it out

Fit and Full -really like the taste and it stayed with me too,,,

Designer Whey - meh

Truffle Nectar Protein powder - yuck

Natural Protein Powder- yuck

Tera Craving Control Dark Chocolate Whey Powder- 

at first I was pretty excited about this one.. It actually smelld like real cocoa when you opened the packet.  

.not artificial ... It was ok..not too chalky... I was hoping it would stay with me.. But after 30 minutes I was hungry.. So not a good fit for me..

Still have other variations  to try .l so we shall see wth that brand...

I also have the powder version of the lean 25 shake to try ... Will review that in part 2

In other kitchen news  I finally got my Herb Mincer .. love it!! 

Ohh and in case you are looking for a creamy rich yogurt try Dannon Ligt and Fit Greek Yogurt.. Lots of flavors to rock your palate .. 80 calorie 10 gas protein 8-10 carbs... Delicious..

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