So ... in 2 days it will be 1 month since I made a COMMITMENT TO MYSELF..
I KNOW .. that if I kept on doing
what I had always done... that I would be done.. that sooner or later I would be
killing myself as a morbidly obese woman...
IT IS not an easy commitment.... and
in some ways being OP is crazy sounding.. who does not eat fruits and ALL
vegggies when they are trying to be healthy...
BUT TO me .. the person ( myself)
that chooses this route to better health and stronger body is using MF/TSFL as a
tool to reach a destination.. and during this journey certain higher carb
choices are eliminated and then reintroduced ... by that time I believe I will
have mastered portion control... and monitoring myself ... and understanding
that while food is FUEL it can be enjoyed but DOES NOT have to be the
WE ARE in the food business.. the
kind of food that is not so healthy .. Occasionally my hands are in bread dough
and cookie dough.. helping get samples ready for demos and such.. or food
MAKING THIS commitment for me..
was really a task.. and a great choice.. yes.. A choice I made .. to make a
commitment to myself..
Do I think the above is a bunch of
fluff and that in a few short months I am going to tune out and turn back to my
old ways... it is something I think about... but when I look at those rolls
baking or see and smell the cookies ... I think to myself... 4 seconds.... ( a
post I did a while back) is it really worth those 4 seconds in my mouth....
to eat a cookie or a roll... is it going to make me feel strong.. proud... no...
so... here I am... having made a commitment to myself.. and praying that I
follow this path... and learn this time... and not have to start over ever
On a odder note I looked at the BMI chart.. and I
am now simply OBESE.. not something to be proud of.. but apparently I graduated